If you see this girl, will you tell her where I am?

Everyone has that one friend that you would do anything for, the one person that you can ring in the middle of the night just for a chat. Someone that knows you better than anyone and they still like you. Good friends are like a good pair of jeans - hard to find but once you do, you grab onto those bad boys and run for the hills (of course paying for them before you dash). I had found my good pair of jeans, but after a stupid idiotic fight, we stopped talking - both as stubborn as each other, neither backing down. Skip forward a year, changed numbers, moved addresses - we lost touch with each. Numerous searches on google for her have returned zilch (I'm not a stalker I swear)

I love this picture, first of all no that is not a spot on my nose it is my nose stud. This was taken in Carpe Diem in Leeds City Centre - they do really nice sandwiches by the way! We used to always start shopping day in there for food. Dee was one of my best friends and I <3 her! I remember we went to a One Night Only signing which we seriously acted like tweens, we baked cupcakes - we were 20/21! We were just too cool for school, haha but no seriously we could act like total idiots around each other. We used to text each other our favourite quotes from the Harry Potter movies, we were both HP geeks, Dee introduced me to Twilight (she was team Jacob)

I think it is sad that two people that were so close let a stupid argument drift them apart - so much has happened that I have wanted to share with Dee but not knowing how to get in contact with her has been really upsetting. I know people do let life get in the way of their friendships, but it wasn't that....it was our stubbornness that made us grow apart. Don't take your friends for granted, especially those closest to you, because one day you will wake up and they won't be there.....

 

Nice to see you to see you nice

I was watching Maxine's vlog where she talked about using her make up products up as she felt she had too much etc. I agreed with everything she said and decided that I too would start to use my products up, I wasn't the only one who thought this as Lauren has also decided to do the same. Here are the products I aim to use up in the coming weeks. Some of these are hardly used and I feel so bad that I have wasted money by having the products just sat there in a drawer looking pretty. I want to apologise in advance for the changing light in the pictures - it's so darn hard to take a good picture.

As you can see I have picked a few items to use up in the next few weeks (I will be doing regular updates when I change the products etc), some the products I love others not so much. I just have to grin and bare it so I can use them. I have decided that when all the items I want to use have all gone then I can treat myself to something nice - beauty related (does this defeat the purpose!?)

Accessorize bronzer in shade 2 Monaco, Color S blush in Rosy Cheek, ELF blush in Glow

I'm not really a fan of bronzer any more and I have a couple to use up, I am going to lightly use this to contour with, all though I have come to terms with my rounded face and lack of cheekbones. I got the Color S blush when I was at Beauty College so I have no idea where you can actually purchase this. The ELF blush is so handy to just throw into my bag it is so small yet gives a nice glow to the cheeks.

ELF Complexion Perfection, 17 Photo Flawless Foundation in shade Soft Ivory, Prime It Face Primer.

I am just going to say I hate the ELF CP with a passion, it leaves my skin looking really cakey and just off it, but hey I have hit pan so it won't be long til it has all gone. This foundation is the only one I have included, it is a little dark but I love the finish of this product. The primer was bought from Bodycare it's okay, nothing special but it needs using up.

MeMeMe Flawless Face Powder in shade Natural

I love this product sooo much, it really sets my foundation and keeps me from looking shiny for a good few hours, there are some days when I wear this just on it's own. It is so light weight and leaves my skin looking flawless - just like it's name says.

Virgin Vie - Golden Eye Colour Sensation

I have had this product for years, years I tell thee! I got it one Christmas from either my Mum or my Auntie, I really love Virgin Vie products, it's such a shame it's not as easily available as it once was. I may start a petition to bring it back...whose with me!? These colours really compliment my eye colour (blue/grey) and I am going to really enjoy using these products up.

Lip Smacker in Bubble Gum, Collection 2000 Skyscraper mascara, ELF Luscious Liquid Lipstick in Baby Lips, ELF Eye Widerer in Pearl White, NYX eye/eyebrow pencil in shade Medium Brown, Rimmel London lipstick in shade in Pink Blush. 

I adore the Rimmel Lipstick so much, it is a really pretty colour and formulation is really nice. I don't know if you can still get this which is such a shame. The NYX pencil is brilliant for filling in my eyebrows, I love the well groomed brows the faker looking the better. The lip smacker packaging looks so nasty and I do apologise, it has just been thrown into my bag so many times oopsie. The mascara is starting to dry up and it has a plastic wand which is my least favourite wand, the ELF liner is appalling is doesn't show up on my skin at all but for £1.50 I didn't expect much. The luscious lipstick how ever is beautiful I really like it, it's such a pretty pink shade but it's rather sheer so it's wearable day or night.

So there you have it girls, my selection of products to use up. I am really excited about using them up as I forgot about some of them and how much I actually liked them. If you would like any separate reviews on anything that you have seen then please just let me know below and I will do that. Are any of you doing something similar to what I am doing, if so I would love to see your posts on what you are doing.

You're so fake

I thought today i would show you my new Mac lipstick in Sweetie, i have wanted this lipstick for ages as i love the finish (lustre) but also the fact it is such a pretty shade. I bought this item from eBay, as soon as i had paid the item i had a gut instinct it would be fake. If it's too good to be true, it normally is. I should have listened to my instinct...this product is 100% fake and i'm going to show you why....

From the outer packaging it looks like the real deal it has the logo the finish of the shade, but no, take a close look at the sides...on the top it should have the 'shade' printed on there instead of it been a sticker (which isn't even on straight!)

When you open up the packaging you are greeted with the 'back to mac'. But it's the bullet that gives this product away. It is huge and bulky looking! Also there is no weight to the product at all, it feels light as air, with my other mac lippys (bought from the store) they are heavy, not super heavy but you can tell you are holding them. On the bottom of the bullet there is a sticker with the shade on it (like all mac lipsticks) but again no finish (by finish i mean glaze, lustre etc) It is cheaply made and the little ridges on real mac lipsticks are circles....on this they are square. You can see where the 'silver' circle is joined together - which only highlights the fact this is not real mac...with mac you pay for the quality....this fake has no quality at all!

Open up the bullet and the mechanism of actually getting the lipstick out of the bullet is so super easy which is down to the fact the actual lipstick is practically weightless. Once the lipstick is up, you aren't greeted with the smell that is associated with real mac lipsticks, infact their is no scent at all....

If this was a real mac lipstick i would happily swatch the product for you, but i am not putting this item anywhere near my skin...i have no idea what has been used to make this lipstick, for all i know it could contain posion.  That is the trouble with these fakes that are on eBay...you have no idea what is inside them, so many girls are at risk of putting lord knows what onto their skin as they think it is a real deal product. You are at risk of skin infections, allergic reactions, some of the ingrediants used may not even be safe for humans.

I hope by reading this post, if you are to buy brand named make up from eBay you do you research...ask to see more packaging pictures if the seller is genuine then they won't mind taking extra pictures for you. Please use your common sense if for example a mac product is listed as brand new but selling for £5 - it is fake. This doesn't just go for Mac products but all brands ie) bobbi brown, benefit etc.

Don't waste your money, if you really want the make up product, save and then go to a reputable place and purchase it. I hope this has been helpful for you girls.

(I have emailed the seller of this product who has promised me a refund)

Skinny Love

Feeling in a little bit of a reflective mood right now - guess it could be sleep deprivation as it is 2:10am...if anyone knows where my sleep pattern has gone please could you let me know - i hate not sleeping. My nights in the last week have consisted of watching Youtube videos - i've even started watching 'spot popping videos' and 'ingrown hair videos' seriously gross yet i can't seem to look away - i need help i have #issues.

Upon my random searches on Youtube i came across a couple of videos that literally made me sit and cry for a solid ten minutes, i kid you not. I don't know if you have heard about the teenager Ben Breedlove who sadly passed away on Christmas day (he was friends with Megan) if you want to watch the videos where he tells you his story you can do so  here. Subsequently i watched other videos about him including his sisters "speech" at his funeral..i don't know what it was that made me watch the videos, but i felt i had to.

 For those who don't know me or haven't read any of my old blogs (this one isn't my first blog) i have a neurological illness, that i was diagnosed with 8 years ago this month. I can relate to Ben in the sense that i can't do things that people my age can do - i can't drink alcohol, ice skate, ride a rollercoaster, whip my hair back and forth, horse ride - just to name a few. I've had to adjust my whole life, i never had my teenage wild child days, i was either in hospital or in bed too ill to move. I have a shunt in my spine that i hate, i hate it with a tremendous passion, but without it i'm hospital bound on a drip unable to see clearly not able to eat can't walk without aid...my shunt basically controls me, i feel like a robot...almost like a cyberman (had to throw in a bit of Doctor Who) as much as it took my life away from me, it gave me new life. As much as i hate my shunt and everything in relation to my health (i also have M.E and have anaemia as well as a dodgy immune system) it made me realise what is important in life...i was sixteen years old when i was told i was going blind - at that age you are meant to be worried about exams, boys, friendship not that you are never going to see again. I remember the moment exactly, i was sat in the eye department of the LGI with my mum i was in a wheelchair in my PJs as i was an in-patient, and i jokingly said to the Doctor "am i going blind?" (at this point i was unable to walk unassisted as i couldn't see clearly at all) he replied with "that's what we are afraid of, something needs to be done right now or you will be blind in a matter of days"

Since having my shunt fitted, i have had to have it revised numerous times, each time more painful, riskier and scarier than the last...although i never show i am scared to my family but i am, i'm scared everytime i go under the knife i will never wake up, i'll never see the sunshine again or the stars twinkling...before they wheel me down to theatre i always take one moment to look at my loved ones faces just incase i never see them again. Having an illness like mine makes me doubt religion and faith, Lord knows my faith has been tested but everytime i have a blip with my illness, my Faith keeps me going - it gives me strength and courage to fight for just one more day. I spend so much of my time worrying that something is going to go wrong with my shunt even though i have been operation free for two years in June.I have only briefly touched on what has happened to me in regards to my health, some stories are too personal and emotional to share...i don't know why i am sharing this with you, maybe because it is coming up to eight years and what better way of dealing with it then sharing my story with the internet.

Reading Bens story made me realise more than ever that life is so short and precious, it can be taken from us in a heartbeat. Don't sweat the small stuff in life, do what makes you happy! Live each day to the fullest....have no regrets.

image and words are my own

(normal posts will be back in the next few days)

Look into my eyes

I thought i would do an 'eyes of the day' post - do they even exist? Well they do now...the boy was messing around taking pictures and he happened to take a pretty decent shot of my eyes, i know the picture looks really edited but i promise you he only used the flash - that's it...he is just a good photographer. I also want to say i don't have a lazy eye it's just how i was looking at the camera...

Mascara: MeMeMe big fat lash (the leopard print one)

Eyeline (lower lash line) : Teddy by Mac

Eyebrows: filled in using the matt brown from the Sleek Original palette

Ta-da there we have it....nothing fancy at all but i wanted to be vain and be all like 'hey look at how blue my eyes look' i jest. Although i may get the boy to work his magic next time i do a smokey eye...keep your eyes peeled for more 'eyes of the day'. What's your favourite way to wear your eye make up?

Simply the best

Happy New year y'all! Today i was going to post my 'most worn products of 2011' then i realised it was next to impossible to do, as i change what products i use that often - everything is rotated - if that makes sense? So instead i decided to do 'some of my favourite products of 2011'  let's begin....

Picking my favourite blush was super hard, i am a blush addict - the more the merrier, but i managed to pick out a favourite and that is..... Mac Honour (frost) - Honour is a pretty, 'natural' shade. It has small fine delicate reflects of gold/bronze. It is noticeable when on the skin but it doesn't look like you have plastered your face with glitter - that's why this blush can also be used as a highlight as it gives you such a nice healthy glow. I find it compliments my skin tone really well, i think if you had a darker complexion you can easily build up the colour.

Picking my favourite eyeshadows was the easiest to pick...there was no competition at all....the winner is the Urban Decay Naked palette, Eugene bought me this towards the start of the year (2011) and i have used it near enough everytime i have wanted to apply eyeshadow. I am such a neutrals girl, this palette is perfect for me. I know that their is a Naked 2 palette, but i'm not in a rush to go out and buy it, i much prefer the original one. I don't think i have to go into too much detail about the Naked palette, as everyone and their dogs know about it and have seen hundreds upon hundreds of reviews.

As well as been a blush girl i am also a lippy lover, to me their is only one brand (out of the ones i have tried) that do amazing lipsticks....Mac....i used to be a Hue girl, but since it's running really low, i haven't wanted to use it - i have two new favourites: I Like It Like That and Mlle. I Like It Like That is a cremesheen formulation, Eugene purchased this for my recent birthday from our local CCO. The shade reminded me so much of Snob however Snob is less lavender based compared to ILILT, it's such a wearable colour, it can be worn during the day and night without looking out of place. Mlle is a glaze formulation, it's a rather pale blue based, light pink. It's none drying on the lips and as it is a glaze it just glides on with a slight 'gloss' look. It reminds me of a paler version of Pink Plaid and a 'cooler' version of Creme Cup (neither of which i own but have swatched several times)

What have your favourites been in 2011?? I would love to know if you have tried any of my favourites?